When You Feel Like Quitting Everything
I had a moment recently, honestly, more than a moment, where I wanted to stop everything. The blog. The podcast. Social media. The faith shop. All of it. I felt like shutting it all down, walking away, and forgetting I ever started.
It’s been almost five weeks since I’ve written a blog. I’ve only posted three podcast episodes and haven’t recorded anything new in weeks. Social media? Silent. I didn’t just slow down. I stopped. This heavy fog I’ve been walking through… it’s been thick. Dark. And full of doubt.
Doubt in myself. Doubt in my calling. Doubt in whether I ever really heard God right in the first place. I kept thinking, “There’s no way He meant to choose me for this.” Because how can I speak to women about mental health and the goodness of God when I’m still struggling with my own darkness? When I’m still the one crying out on the floor, begging God to just take it all away? When I can barely hold myself together?
The truth is, it’s been hard. Really hard. I’ve been trying to run this faith shop, but nothing feels like it’s going right. There are days I stare at all the work and just want to throw in the towel. And I mean really walk away for good. What’s the point? Why bother?
But God. He reminded me, that was the whole point.
That I wasn’t called to this when I had it all together. I was called in the middle of my own mess. My own struggles. My own tears. Because who better to speak into the darkness than someone who knows what it feels like to sit in it? Who better to encourage the weary than someone who’s felt that same weariness in their bones?
He brought to mind so many men and women in Scripture that He called right in the middle of their brokenness. He didn’t wait for them to clean it all up first. He called Moses while he was full of fear and self-doubt. He called David when he was tending sheep, not when he was wearing a crown. He called Peter knowing full well he’d deny Him three times. He used people in the middle of their pain, not after it passed.
And then He reminded me, this blog, this podcast, this account, this business, they’re not mine. They’re His. I’m just the vessel. I can’t quit something He called me to. But He also gently reminded me of something else too… rest is okay.
We don’t serve a God who’s like the CEO of some cold corporation demanding constant output. He’s not tracking your productivity. He’s not waiting for you to hustle harder. He’s a loving Father. One who sees when you’re weary. One who calls you to rest. One who cares more about your heart than your platform.
So maybe you’re there too. Tired. Questioning. Wondering if you should just let it all go. Can I gently remind you the way He reminded me?
Rest, but don’t quit. Step back if you need to. But don’t forget who called you in the first place. This calling isn’t about being perfect or having it all figured out. It’s about showing up with a surrendered heart and saying, “Here I am, Lord. Use me. Even like this.”
You’re not disqualified because you’re struggling. You’re not disqualified because you’re tired. You are human. And He knows that. He’s not asking for perfection. He’s asking for your yes. Even in the dark. Even when you want to quit. Even now.
Lord, You see the one reading this who’s weary. You see their tears, their doubts, their heaviness. You know how tired their heart feels. You know the battles they’re facing that no one else does. Thank You for reminding us that You don’t wait for us to have it all together before You call us. You meet us right here, in the mess, in the silence, in the moments we feel like walking away. Give us the strength to keep showing up. Not perfectly, just faithfully. Teach us to rest when we need to without guilt. Remind us that Your calling doesn’t depend on our performance but on Your power working through our weakness. Help us surrender everything we’re carrying back into Your hands. Help us remember why we said yes in the first place. You are still God. You are still good. Even now.
In Jesus’ name, Amen.
