For the Woman Who Just Can’t Right Now
The past couple of weeks have been… a lot. I’ve felt so weighed down with worry, doubt, and confusion that it’s been hard to function, let alone stay motivated with anything. I’ve barely written, haven’t posted on my CJM social pages, and don’t even ask me about the laundry—it’s all still sitting in baskets waiting to be folded. I haven’t been doing Bible study. I haven’t been spending that intentional time with God like I should. And prayer? It’s been minimal.
To be honest, I’ve been curled up on the couch most days just watching TV—completely lost in fantasy worlds so I didn’t have to deal with my own. I’ve been feeling stuck. Unmotivated. Spiritually dry. And it’s been eating away at me.
And if you’ve ever been in that place, you know it’s not that you don’t love God. It’s not that you’ve walked away from your faith. It’s that life sometimes gets so overwhelming, your heart feels heavy, your mind feels cluttered, and everything in you just wants to shut down for a bit.
I’ve had to remind myself this week that I’m not broken. I’m not a failure. I’m not disqualified. I’m just… human. And sometimes our souls get tired. Sometimes the pressure of “keeping it all together” wears us down until there’s just not much left.
But even in this space, even in my silence, God is still near.
He sees the couch days. He sees the tears that never fall because you're too tired to cry. He sees the blank stares when you open your Bible but feel like nothing is sticking. And He’s not disappointed. He’s not shaking His head at you. He’s sitting with you in the stillness, waiting to hold your heart when you're ready.
And you know what? He’s been gently pulling at mine.
Not in a way that’s demanding or forceful, but in that loving whisper kind of way—the kind that says, “Daughter, I’m still here. And I’m not letting go.”
I think we need to stop being so hard on ourselves during these seasons. Because they will come. There will be moments when you feel like you’re just floating, not really moving forward but not going backward either. There will be days when prayer feels hard and worship feels distant. But God’s love for you doesn’t change in those moments.
So what do we do when we feel this way?
Honestly, we start small. We give ourselves permission to feel what we feel and then take one small step. Maybe that step is just saying, “Lord, I need You today.” Maybe it’s opening your Bible even if you only get through a verse or two. Maybe it’s shutting the TV off for a little while and just sitting in silence, asking God to meet you where you are. Not where you think you should be—but right there, in your living room, in your mess, in your exhaustion.
That’s where He meets us. And that’s where He begins to restore.
One verse I’ve clung to in moments like this is Psalm 73:26 – “My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Because yeah, I may be failing in a lot of ways right now… but He’s not. And His strength is what’s going to carry me out of this.
If you’ve been in this season too—if you’re there right now—I just want you to know you’re not alone. You’re not lazy. You’re not distant from God. You’re not a bad Christian. You’re just tired. And God understands that.
Let Him carry you. Let Him sit with you in the quiet. And when you're ready, take that small step back toward Him—He hasn’t gone anywhere.
Lord, You see me in this place of tiredness and spiritual dryness. You know my heart better than I do, and You know the burdens I’ve been carrying. I surrender it all to You today. The worry, the doubt, the lack of motivation—You know it all, and yet You love me still. Help me to take just one small step toward You. Meet me here, even in the stillness. Refresh my spirit, strengthen my heart, and draw me close again. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
